An errand kid: The downside of being bold and the JOY it brings amidst sorrow

I’m upset because I’m scared when my loved ones think of me judging them, it seems like I feel the weight of being a God for a time and they doubt every love I have for them. It hurts me, and it's really a lift for me being a feeble human to take courage on telling them to straighten up - because God tell us to do so, and He is serious with every word given so I should be serious too on telling them. That’s always been the case and it feels that my world is becoming small. Pls. forgive me Lord, I grumble instead of praying hard to back it off.

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You will never stop learning if you let yourself learning too.  Sometimes, and I guess this is true to everyone; it's hard to learn or push hard to get what God meant of every step He directs us to walk because of our bad emotions, our fears, or our doubts, and sometimes our curiosity on how things work the way they do, there will always be like that while you live in this world. That's why living in His presence and adoring Him amidst every circumstance is really important as a Christian. And as a new believer or a believer striving to know and experience God for more than six years now,  I feel sorrowful to those who don't know Him because they just reject every opportunity to know Him - the giver of Life that they are looking for and in the same way, I feel more sorrowful and sometimes I am surprised of myself bursting in anger when a believer tries to fall down - falling short of that beauty of living in His Presence. I just thought of reminding them seriously that there is no other beauty in replacement of the Presence of beauty that they have right now in JESUS, it's like - I've been there so I can tell right now?. With this in me, realizes too that I can never really do anything apart from the hand of God holding me, in which I can never give something that is apart from Him who gives. I need to be filled too.  And that I am scared that we may never get what we want in every tries to get it, but sure thing what we really want is only Him -the true LIFE- and that's what He can give to us if we only ask. He is the only Giver, that's why we fix our eyes on Jesus, that is what I understand about this.

I remembered when a beautiful lady - she is an American missionary, she's been used by God so much for many years now and - was used by God to tell me something to build me up with her experience when she was young in serving the Lord as a Pastor's wife- she said, " GOD WILL USE YOU AT THE SAME TIME CHANGES  YOU" and this is always what I hear inside of me when I fail or fall short of the strength of God to do what I can do for Him. And it's a Joy beyond sorrow of my inadequacy.

I really admire elder people especially women who have grown serving the Lord. I see beauty in them even when you just meet them occasionally; and sometimes I just look at them... you will see the humility that God put in their faces - a smile that has full of value because they have been a lot of experiencing, depending on the mercy, love and faithfulness of God in their personal lives, affecting their ministries. And for me just looking at them or hearing them say even just a piece of message to me; I know it is beautiful and I have to keep it as treasure to pull it out when I am feeling discouraged in my walk as a Christian.

It’s a new learning to see Him even more clearly, and a new experience of His undying Love that is always new and intensive. I realize, I may be hurt of my disappointments in life but with that, I become more closer to Him and trusting more that I am no good the way I do and He is good enough Who lives in me.

It is God who tell us, and we will know it - thou knowest!

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5 Signs You’re Part of an Unhealthy Church

5 Signs You’re Part of an Unhealthy Church: There is no perfect church--but there are healthy and unhealthy churches.

videos for teaching-

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The Word of God

(Hebrews 4:12 NIV) For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

Just as some of us thought that the word of God is just a plain print. But he who believes in Him  is given the authority to use His word as power and protection to  life. Just His word can do a lot of things.Even to change lives. Read the Bible and meditate on it.

(Joshua 1:8 NIV) Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.

A testimony to share: God's best is fulfilled when we seek Him first

I feel my boyfriend, Ric and I are a testimony to broken hearted young adults. This is not something to brag about. If there's something that we can brag, it is how the will of God when obeyed will bring fullness into our lives.
Yesterday, Ric told me again how he felt inspired by the response of a single girl who's a dormate of her sister suffering from failed relationship.To encourage the girl, Ric told her a testimony about our relationship.
Our story went this way: After one year and five months Ric and I finally see each other. Committing not to see each other that long for the reason that; to grow, and finding the will of God into our personal lives. Ric is a seminarian in APTS Baguio ( 6hr traveling hrs. away from me). 2 semester, and he will soon graduate this September of 2011. As I am a working girl, a designer here in manila. Our relationship is lasting, in fact we are turning to 10 years this June 2011, As we realized our pact to be separated in a given time was challenging and yet full of freedom to discover ourselves. You can do whatever you want and then do it as if no one will be taken inconsideration to. One and a half year is too short to get separated to discover a lot of ourselves, for me its just a break to really make sure that we as a person in a relationship is totally who we are when we are together. Sometimes I tend to feel out of balance when everything is quite routinize. routinize in the sense that--- to sustain the relationship we have: is to call over the phone everyday to check out, is to find time to do as quite often to see each other, to celebrate special event together and so on and so forth. A good thing  indeed to keep the relationship alive. But as we hope to reach the fullness of our relationship, God put into our hearts the need to be separated from each other for a time. In that way we may realize that our fullness as one being comes from the father God and that acknowledges us the need to nurture by priority our relationship with the Father. The time  that we were apart from each other gave us the freedom to seek what it is to become a unique individual needing to share each other lives as God wills it to be. As we offered our fate to God, He provided the way for us to get back together. He controlled everything to fulfill His plan for us. Truly, I can see clearly that we are for each other and was created for a purpose. A purpose to glorify Him into  our relationship. Others asked us what's the point, for when we are in a long time relationship. That 9 years--does it mean we are not pretty sure of ourselves being together forever?, I would say, When you truly love each other you would find ways to bring it to the fullest, not lacking of anything. I sure believe that being a unique individual has its flaws too and can't fulfill all the need of a partner.But being right with God first will lead you on how to fulfill the relationship to your partner despite the flaws and imperfection of who we are. Now that we met each other, I see a change person in ourselves. We are still who we are but a lot different as being in a relationship.We became mature in our decisions: minor to major things. We become controlled by love and wisdom of being "as one" not by being individually made fitting each other "to be one".
God is the author of everything. All we can do now is to read our rough draft story that we honestly claiming our own and make God proofread it to us--in so, we can read it with quite confidence to others. A good book indeed.

We make things work for us as God leads us to. No matter how risky it is, when you trust God you find courage despite the fear. When we overcame and testify the faithfulness of God. We share it a loud to people needing to hear it.
This girl that my boyfriend is encouraging, find rest to her weary heart. We may never know when we could be of help to others. But being prepared to tell our stories of obedience to God will be beneficial to others as well to our heart of gratefulness to the Lord who sustains.

Now let's wait and see the next surprise God has set for us as we wait for the second plan in our relationship. We, in our relationship find the strength in seeking God's best. We believe that His will for us is the best plan we could ever hold for. How we can know His will? by nurturing our personal relationship to God..
Jesus as the foundation of everything we have, our relationship

(Numbers 23:19 NIV) God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?

Psalm 25:12
Who is the man who fears the LORD? He will instruct him in the way he should choose.

Philemon 1:21
according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, by the sanctifying work of the Spirit, that you may obey Jesus Christ and be sprinkled with His blood: May grace and peace be yours in fullest measure.

Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Matthew 6:33
Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Proverbs 3:6
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

(Psalms 33:11-13 NIV) But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations. {12} Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD, the people he chose for his inheritance. {13} From heaven the LORD looks down and sees all mankind;

(Psalms 84:11-12 NIV) For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless. {12} O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.

(Romans 5:5 NIV) And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.


(Isaiah 61:1 NIV) The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,

Made in the Image of God

Amazing Grace by Rhema Marvanne--a powerful voice from God