I’m upset because I’m scared when my loved ones think of me judging them, it seems like I feel the weight of being a God for a time and they doubt every love I have for them. It hurts me, and it's really a lift for me being a feeble human to take courage on telling them to straighten up - because God tell us to do so, and He is serious with every word given so I should be serious too on telling them. That’s always been the case and it feels that my world is becoming small. Pls. forgive me Lord, I grumble instead of praying hard to back it off.
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You will never stop learning if you let yourself learning too. Sometimes, and I guess this is true to everyone; it's hard to learn or push hard to get what God meant of every step He directs us to walk because of our bad emotions, our fears, or our doubts, and sometimes our curiosity on how things work the way they do, there will always be like that while you live in this world. That's why living in His presence and adoring Him amidst every circumstance is really important as a Christian. And as a new believer or a believer striving to know and experience God for more than six years now, I feel sorrowful to those who don't know Him because they just reject every opportunity to know Him - the giver of Life that they are looking for and in the same way, I feel more sorrowful and sometimes I am surprised of myself bursting in anger when a believer tries to fall down - falling short of that beauty of living in His Presence. I just thought of reminding them seriously that there is no other beauty in replacement of the Presence of beauty that they have right now in JESUS, it's like - I've been there so I can tell right now?. With this in me, realizes too that I can never really do anything apart from the hand of God holding me, in which I can never give something that is apart from Him who gives. I need to be filled too. And that I am scared that we may never get what we want in every tries to get it, but sure thing what we really want is only Him -the true LIFE- and that's what He can give to us if we only ask. He is the only Giver, that's why we fix our eyes on Jesus, that is what I understand about this.
I remembered when a beautiful lady - she is an American missionary, she's been used by God so much for many years now and - was used by God to tell me something to build me up with her experience when she was young in serving the Lord as a Pastor's wife- she said, " GOD WILL USE YOU AT THE SAME TIME CHANGES YOU" and this is always what I hear inside of me when I fail or fall short of the strength of God to do what I can do for Him. And it's a Joy beyond sorrow of my inadequacy.
I really admire elder people especially women who have grown serving the Lord. I see beauty in them even when you just meet them occasionally; and sometimes I just look at them... you will see the humility that God put in their faces - a smile that has full of value because they have been a lot of experiencing, depending on the mercy, love and faithfulness of God in their personal lives, affecting their ministries. And for me just looking at them or hearing them say even just a piece of message to me; I know it is beautiful and I have to keep it as treasure to pull it out when I am feeling discouraged in my walk as a Christian.
It’s a new learning to see Him even more clearly, and a new experience of His undying Love that is always new and intensive. I realize, I may be hurt of my disappointments in life but with that, I become more closer to Him and trusting more that I am no good the way I do and He is good enough Who lives in me.
It is God who tell us, and we will know it - thou knowest!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q78XZbs8lAc
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You will never stop learning if you let yourself learning too. Sometimes, and I guess this is true to everyone; it's hard to learn or push hard to get what God meant of every step He directs us to walk because of our bad emotions, our fears, or our doubts, and sometimes our curiosity on how things work the way they do, there will always be like that while you live in this world. That's why living in His presence and adoring Him amidst every circumstance is really important as a Christian. And as a new believer or a believer striving to know and experience God for more than six years now, I feel sorrowful to those who don't know Him because they just reject every opportunity to know Him - the giver of Life that they are looking for and in the same way, I feel more sorrowful and sometimes I am surprised of myself bursting in anger when a believer tries to fall down - falling short of that beauty of living in His Presence. I just thought of reminding them seriously that there is no other beauty in replacement of the Presence of beauty that they have right now in JESUS, it's like - I've been there so I can tell right now?. With this in me, realizes too that I can never really do anything apart from the hand of God holding me, in which I can never give something that is apart from Him who gives. I need to be filled too. And that I am scared that we may never get what we want in every tries to get it, but sure thing what we really want is only Him -the true LIFE- and that's what He can give to us if we only ask. He is the only Giver, that's why we fix our eyes on Jesus, that is what I understand about this.
I remembered when a beautiful lady - she is an American missionary, she's been used by God so much for many years now and - was used by God to tell me something to build me up with her experience when she was young in serving the Lord as a Pastor's wife- she said, " GOD WILL USE YOU AT THE SAME TIME CHANGES YOU" and this is always what I hear inside of me when I fail or fall short of the strength of God to do what I can do for Him. And it's a Joy beyond sorrow of my inadequacy.
I really admire elder people especially women who have grown serving the Lord. I see beauty in them even when you just meet them occasionally; and sometimes I just look at them... you will see the humility that God put in their faces - a smile that has full of value because they have been a lot of experiencing, depending on the mercy, love and faithfulness of God in their personal lives, affecting their ministries. And for me just looking at them or hearing them say even just a piece of message to me; I know it is beautiful and I have to keep it as treasure to pull it out when I am feeling discouraged in my walk as a Christian.
It’s a new learning to see Him even more clearly, and a new experience of His undying Love that is always new and intensive. I realize, I may be hurt of my disappointments in life but with that, I become more closer to Him and trusting more that I am no good the way I do and He is good enough Who lives in me.
It is God who tell us, and we will know it - thou knowest!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q78XZbs8lAc
